Sunday, April 27, 2008

Happy Pascha

This year I observed Lent, as much as I could, and I attended the Paschal Liturgy at my church. Pascha is the Orthodox name for Easter and their calculation of the date for Easter is different than the Western tradition largely because of a continued use of the Julian calendar (and they rely on a real full moon, rather than a calculated one). The result of the calculation difference means that Pascha is always after the Western Easter, and it usually falls on the close of Passover(since the calculation for the two is essentially the same).

I arrived at Holy Resurrection at about midnight just as the paschal flame was being passed to the congregation. The church was dark except for a small light in the Holy Sanctuary where the Priests performed the rites of the service. I then saw those lights multiply as the priests lit candles and emerged from the sanctuary to light the candles of the parishioners. The paschal light was spread backwards through the church until it found me, in the very back, just outside of the door to the nave(where the parishioners are during the service). There was no artificial light and the room was filled with little candle lights. It was a beautiful sight. Chanting begun and the Paschal Hymn was sung. I like the Paschal Hymn a lot, and have since I first heard it. The English of the hymn is as follows: "Christ is risen, from the dead. Trampling down death by death, and upon those in the tombs bestowing life" – then repeat. This short verse is full of theological depth and captures the crux of Christian belief, I like it very much and I tend to say it in my head often.

As I was in the back of the church, I watched my candle, protecting its light. We processed around the church, all of us holding our candles. I thought about how the candle must be protected from the wind and how sometimes it is blown out and you have to ask someone if you can use their candle to light yours. It seems like this is a perfect analogy for Christian life, or life in general. We cultivate what we believe, but there are sometimes doubts and having a community to fall back on allows our "flames" to be relit. Pascha is the annual resurrection of our(Orthodox Christians) faith and reminds us that life is a process that requires nurturing and care for growth to occur.

The rest of the service was good as well, after the procession, the lights are turned on in the church and liturgy continues with interjected bouts of "Christ is risen" and "Indeed, He is risen" in many languages. There are a number of different hymns sung which make the service longer than usual. Many of the children in the congregation were asleep by 2ish. I saw some kids on the pews sleeping and two others in sleeping bags under the pews. My friend Aaron's baby seemed determined to stay awake though looking at her little face; I could tell she was tired. She didn't cry during the service even though at one point I looked over and she seemed to be making grumpy-mouth – it was pretty cute.

When the service concluded with communion and blessed bread we gathered downstairs for the Paschal Feast. There was a ton of food, mostly the stuff that one could not eat if they had been fasting. Many of the kids, and adults, were walking around with hard boiled eggs and playing a game where they crack eggs with another to see whose egg will break. One thing I noticed that was different from the other time I had attended Pascha at Holy Resurrection is that the food tables were in a straight line. When I had attended in college, the tables were laid out in the shape of a cross. I suppose the linear shape facilitates getting food easier, but I enjoy the little symbolic details sometimes.

I talked with a few people and met some people that I didn't know before. I spoke with Fr. Patrick briefly and then came home. I managed to sneak in the door around 4am. I was tired, but I am really glad that I went to service.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

thinking about the beginning of time

In the beginning there was a ball of massive incomprehensible stuff that got bored and became the universe. Okay, I will take that, I mean it is the closest thing to an acknowledgement of a beginning of the universe one can expect from a scientific establishment that is bent on eliminating metaphysical references when talking about the universe. The problem is that scientists have run into a physical wall, a no man's land of sorts with regards to physical laws. All of the explanations for the Big Bang must abandon physics. I should acknowledge that I am reading a book by David Berlinski right now talking about the scientific consensus that God does not exist, or at least God should not exist. That being said I have been pondering the Big Bang and its paradoxes for quite a while. Hawking purports to be able to tunnel through the Big Bang to a prior state using a mathematical tool know as imaginary or complex numbers(remember the square root of -1 from high school math?). But that is still a technique and not a description of measurable science. Even with his little imaginary tunnel, he is brought to a place which just exists, until it decided to come out, there is nothing significant that can be said about that space and nothing can be said about the cause for its existence. If you think about the cosmological situation we see a return to a fundamental problem in scientific inquiry. Science uses conjecture then experiment to form statements about the physical world. Scientists, however, feel that they should be able to say things about non-physical events, and claim that to be a physical observation. Talking about events prior to the Big Bang is metaphysical, the laws of physics admittedly break down at the Big Bang, it is a singularity where no meaningful data can be assessed. To say that the universe had a state prior to the Big Bang is not within the realm of science. Maybe it is in the realm of advanced mathematics, but at that point the system described is not our universe but a logical entity, essentially a metaphysical system.

What astounds me is that many will fight vehemently to say that science has proved there is no God. It seems to me that it is not within the realm of scientific inquiry to prove such a claim. Perhaps science can assert that a physical reality which was purportedly caused by God has a physical cause, but it cannot prove God to not exist.

So what is it that pushes God-deniers forward? If their methods are not really scientific, why do they push the point? Because they believe it. The same reason that Christians believe Jesus was the Son of God, or Jews believe Abraham talked to God, or the Greeks believed the gods to have lived on Olympus. Believing in the assertion that God does not exist is just as much(if not more of) a matter of faith as believing God does exist. When one asks what caused the universe, one can say nothing, or one can say God (one can say other things, but logically they amount to nothing). It is the expedient answer to say God caused the universe, for there is no perceivable physical cause and our experience is that things do not come from nothing.